Independent Churches and Accountability Issues

During the course of the last month I have learned of two different pastors of two different small, independent churches in my area that have been involved in bilking their congregations and as a result these churches have imploded, leaving their congregants confused, hurt and demoralized. I have friends that attended each of these two churches and have spent some time with a number of them offering encouragement and counsel.

That both of these were somewhat charismatic ‘health and wealth’ pastors is not the main point of this post, although I have previously in other posts addressed my concerns with the lack of biblical support for the ‘Prosperity Gospel.’ What concerns me more at the present about these two separate unrelated incidents is how so many of these small ‘bible churches’ lack any real degree of oversight at the church level, both spiritually as well as from the business side of things and how that can result in unmitigated disaster for the congregants at such churches when the pastor goes astray.

Like I’ve told my friends that attended these churches, pastors are merely human beings just like us, and are subject to all of the failings and sins that we are. We hope that our pastors have developed a much closer relationship with God than we as laity have and therefore are perhaps a little less prone to the various distractions such as greed and lust than we are, but unfortunately that isn’t always the case.

One of the biggest problems that I see in some of these situations is that there is little or no oversight over the church or the pastor him or herself. In a larger church there is of course the deacons and/or elders that provide some sort of oversight and in a church that is part of a larger denomination such as the United Methodists there is oversight from above in the form of bishop or what-have-you.

In a small independent church however, the buck often stops at the pastor himself. The pastor has full accountability and the church is in his hands alone. There is quite often nobody looking over his shoulder on occasion to insure that all is as it should be and the church is naively trusting that since this man is ‘a man of God’ that all is well and will always stay that way. Of course, anybody who reads the news knows that is not always the case; the news reports are always quick to pick up on when a pastor of one church or another has fallen.

Another big problem that I see with small independent churches is that oftentimes the pastor himself has nobody to turn to when his faith starts to waver. I’ll grant that many independent pastors try and network with other pastors in other churches, but that is not always the case. Quite often the pastor finds himself at the top of his spiritual mountain and when trouble come he has no one to lay his burden upon and receive encouragement and/or counsel.

The fall from the top can sometimes be a fast and slippery slope, especially when there is no one around to throw you a lifeline.

I had the opportunity over the summer to spend some time with one of these two pastors at a weekend retreat. He was relating to me how he was struggling with a fairly large apparent error that he had found in the New Testament book of Hebrews and it was troubling him greatly. He is a fundamentalist and had for all of his life believed in biblical inerrancy, and I wonder if this might not have been a part of his fall down the slippery slope. I, of course, have dispensed with inerrancy and am quite comfortable with that, but being a layman of a different Christian tradition than him I found that I was really not able to offer him much in the way of support that he would have been able to live with. I was concerned at that time last summer that something was going wrong in his walk with God but felt unqualified to do or say much about it.

Now don’t get me wrong, there are a great many fine and wonderful men and women of God that are doing great things for the Kingdom of God in small, independent churches across the globe. Also, in reality it is quite easy for a ‘man of the cloth’ in any church, large or small to ‘fall from grace.’

I’m not saying that people shouldn’t be a part of a church just because it is small and independent. There are a great many spiritual leaders who have started out in small churches and have done great things for God. What I am saying is that you should check the credentials of whoever your preacher is and make sure that your pastor has others that he is making himself accountable to.

It is not a good thing to be at the very top of your own spiritual mountain with no one to turn to when troubles arise, as they invariably will. Although God is always present to throw a lifeline when one is needed, He often uses other people within the Body of Christ to actually hand that lifeline out when it is needed. When a person, whether a layman or clergy, has isolated themselves at the top of a spiritual mountain it can be quick and dangerous slippery slope to the bottom.

I’ll continue to keep my friends who attended these two churches in my prayers and hope that they realize that God has not failed them. God never fails us, but people often will. I trust in God with all of my heart, mind, soul and strength, but I watch people very carefully, especially if I sense that they are alone at the top of a spiritual mountain.

John Edwards…Charisma, Spin and Lies

My wife and I watched the 20/20 interview with former Presidential Candidate John Edwards’ aid Andrew Young. Young has written an expose’ called ‘The Politician’ on all of John Edwards shenanigans over the last few years, and I have to admit that I was a little surprised at just how deep all of the deception and lies that Edwards had propagated ran. What was even more disturbing is how John Edwards had used his considerable charm and charisma to convince all of those around him to further promulgate the lies and deception that he was living in. Of course, what is most disturbing is that this man could have possible become the leader of the free world.

When Edwards was running for President, something about him didn’t ring true for me. My wife thought that he was the nation’s brightest hope, but I wasn’t quite so sure. You see, I’ve run across quite a few con men over the years, and have developed a knack for smelling them out.

Whenever someone seems too good to be true, my experience is that they normally are. John Edwards seemed to me to be one of these too good to be true sort of guys. He smiled just a little too big, spoke just a little too wise and then there was that intangible ‘something about him’ quality that I’ve learned how to pick up on over the years that made me wonder.

Charisma. How many people over the years who have had this gift have misused it for their own gain and to the great detriment of others?

It amazes me sometimes how many people just buy into one charismatic leader of another’s hype and spin without ever thinking twice about it. Not until, of course, it is too late and when the deception is revealed countless people have lost their money, self-worth, and sometimes even their very souls.

For those who read my blog, you’re aware of course about the Great Deception that I grew up in with the Worldwide Church of God and Herbert W. Armstrong. Armstrong was a very charismatic religious leader who deceived hundreds of thousands over the course of five decades and damaged or destroyed countless innocent lives. I saw through his charisma and spin campaign by the time that I was sixteen and got away as fast as I could. Even so, it still took many years for me to recover from the experience.

Perhaps this early life experience is why I am very cautious of someone who looks too good or talks too wise. There have been several times over the course of my life when I fairly early on perceived that someone was full of crap, while everyone else was singing accolades to this person.

My wife and I attended a ‘prosperity gospel’ church for several months when we were back in our twenties. It was a pretty large church and the young pastor had about as much charisma as any that I’ve seen. All of the church members loved him, and every week many of them gave this man much more money than they could afford, just because this pastor said to. Of course, it was ‘seed money’, and this charismatic pastor assured them all that they would receive their money back ‘pressed down and flowing over.’ I was wary right away and after a few months was 100% convinced that this guy was as full as crap as they come. My wife and I quit attending the church, but many stayed on, throwing their money vainly away as this man squandered their hard-earned cash on his lavish lifestyle.

There have been others over the years that I have picked up on, and had my suspicions turn out to be true. Just this last year I was introduced to a pastor of church that several friends of mine attend of whom I immediately felt that something wasn’t quite right. I just found out last month that he was siphoning funds from his church and his supposed friends and now many of them are deeply hurt and demoralized. One of his ‘closest friends’ actually lost his business because of this preacher’s greed and deception.

Not everyone with the gift of charisma misuses it. There have been a great many people over the years that have had this gift and have done great good with it. Winston Churchill, Mahatma Ghandi, Billy Graham, and Martin Luther King Jr. come to mind.

But seemingly for every Winston Churchill there is an Adolph Hitler, and for every Billy Graham there is a David Koresh.

I myself have come to the point to where I pretty much try to ignore charisma and spin altogether and look at everyone and their program, whether political or religious, objectively. And when ‘my little voice’ tells me that something is not quite right about someone, I am getting better at listening to it.

I feel really sorry for all of the people that John Edwards has hurt, but I’m very thankful that he did not become our President. Maybe other people should start listening to their own ‘little voice’ and when someone seems to good to be true, they need to ask themselves why. And if they don’t have their own ‘little voice’ perhaps they should listen to people that do.

Working Out My Own Salvation

When it comes to what it means to ‘be saved’ within Christianity, there are about as many ideas of what this constitutes as there are Christian churches in the state of Texas. Almost all Christians agree that faith in Christ is necessary, but from that point denominational views of soteriology, or the study of exactly what constitutes salvation in Christ, is very wide ranging. Additionally, although most Christians agree that good works are a characteristic of a Christian, there is a substantial debate on exactly what constitutes ‘good works’, and how or even if those works relate to our salvation here in the present and at the final judgement.

Although most Protestants believe that faith in Christ is essential for salvation, there is a range of beliefs on how we obtain this faith. Many Baptists and all Calvinists as well as those in the Lutheran traditions believe that we as individuals have absolutely nothing to do with obtaining faith, that it is explicitly a gift of God and that we had nothing whatsoever to do with it. Other Protestants, primarily those within the Wesleyan tradition as well as most Anglicans, believe that it is a synergistic event; that is a combination of our free will and God’s prevenient grace that enables us to come to faith in Christ. Still others, primarily those in many of the charismatic and in the non-denominational churches, seem to believe in complete libertarian free will and think that we come to faith entirely of our own volition. As near as I can tell, salvation in the Catholic Church has next to nothing to do with faith, but is primarily about Baptism within the Catholic Church and regular administration of the sacraments, although the Catholics do believe that there are those outside of the Catholic tradition that are also saved.

Justification is defined as what is required to put a believer in ‘rightstanding with God’ and therefore secure our salvation both in the present tense as well as in the hereafter, and is as probably one of the most hotly debated theological issues both today and for the last two millennia. Currently the justification debate between the Anglican Bishop N.T. Wright and the Reformed (Calvinist) theologian John Piper has been stirring up lot’s of controversy on both sides of the Atlantic. Although I haven’t read either of their books yet, I’ve read numerous interviews and essays by both men and about the current justification debate.

Regeneration is another step in the process of salvation, which essentially describes God’s work in the believer’s life, transforming the believer from their former sinful and fallen state. Again, the divergence of theological ideologies concerning regeneration is astounding. Those within the Calvinist tradition assert that regeneration actually takes place before salvation, underlining their focus on predestination and the sovereignty of God. The Catholics and Lutherans seem to believe in baptismal regeneration, stating that it is the sacrament of Baptism that actually starts the process of regeneration and that regular administration of the sacraments completes the process. Others in the Protestant churches take varying views of regeneration, with some focusing less on regeneration and more on sanctification.

Sanctificationis known as the process in which a believer grows in holiness. Those in the Reformed tradition believe that sanctification is synchronous with regeneration and that it is more or less a one-time event that occurs at salvation. Within other Protestant traditions, sanctification thought of as more of a process that takes the entirety of a believer’s life to complete. Within the Wesleyan tradition, entire sanctification is believed possible and is the eventual goal of the believer. Sanctification is also important in the Catholic and Orthodox traditions, with a form of entire sanctification known as theosis thought possible. The Catholics also seem to believe that if further sanctification in necessary after death, that the process is continued in Purgatory.

As I mentioned in a previous post, I am beginning to see the error in lumping justification, regeneration and sanctification into one single category. I see problems both in practical application in a Christian’s personal religious life as well as corporately. In many ways, personal piety is endangered by not considering the wider implications of sanctification and in believing oneself as the ‘completed work of Christ’ because of a confession of faith in Christ as one’s savior and subsequent baptism. Ultimately though, I fear that one’s salvation itself could be endangered by not putting more thought into what it means to ‘be saved.’

I think that my wife sometimes thinks that I should just say ‘Thank you very much’ to Christ for my salvation and just get on with living my life as a Christian instead of putting so much time and effort into trying to figure the whole thing out. I don’t know if it is because of my zeal for Christ or because I have such a quizzical brain, or a combination of the both of these as to why I am so interested in ‘working out my own salvation.’ Then again perhaps my curiosity stems from my legalistic Armstrongism upbringing and a difficulty in believing that a mere faith in Christ is all that is sufficient for salvation. It seems to me that at least some kind of works to provide evidence of salvation should be necessary.

I will concede that whatever ‘good works’ flow from me are as the result from the inworking of the Holy Spirit within me. Of and by myself I am not capable of securing my own salvation or of being able to do any sort of ‘good works’ afterwards. I must have help, and lots of it, and that help must be from God.

However, what degree of will that I must (or are even capable of) exert in continuing in the process of regeneration and sanctification are still a mystery to me. Additionally, what are ‘good works’ and what does sanctification look like? And is justification a one-time event or is it more complex than that? And in that vein, is it actually possible to lose your salvation, and if so, how?Through my next few posts I will continue exploring these subjects and try to elucidate exactly where I stand with my current understanding of these and other related questions.

How Much Did You Love My Son?

My wife told me once about a sermon that she heard from the pastor of the church that she attended before we were married. The sermon was essentially about loving God and what that looked like. Her pastor started his sermon with the statement; “The one question that God is going to ask us when we get to Heaven is this, ‘How much did you love my Son?’”

I remember back during my younger years when I was attempting to ‘become a Christian’, seeking out the love of God and wanting to experience the love, joy and hope that those around me in the various churches that I attended seemed to have. However, I had a great difficulty ever getting over my childhood impressions of God, who seemed more to be a God of wrath and judgement than a God of love.

I know that I wanted to love Jesus, but the problem was that I didn’t know Jesus. I went to various churches and would get caught up in the feelings of those that I was worshipping with and more than anything I wanted for some of the love for God that I seemed to sense all around me to somehow or another rub off onto me. There were times that I thought that the contagious fever of love for God was rubbing off and that I was perhaps starting to ‘get it’, but those seasons were short lived and led to even greater disillusionment and discouragement.

These were the times that I felt like I was beginning to love Jesus, but looking back it seems to me that it was more like infatuation.

I have heard infatuation described as ‘being in love with the idea of being in love with someone.’ Nearly everyone has experienced infatuation, that giddy exhilaration that comes when you have this great attraction to someone that you really don’t know at all. It looks like love, it feels like love, but it is in reality a vapor that often slips away once you realize that you can’t have that person or perhaps that person isn’t who you thought they were after all.

You see, it’s awfully difficult to genuinely love someone that you really don’t know. I really didn’t know who Jesus was for many, many years. I had spent my time in various churches examining their doctrines, trying to figure out which part of each churches doctrines were right and which parts were wrong. I was also still trying to dispel the ghosts from my ‘Armstrongism past’, and trying to figure out when the end of the world was actually going to come and what I needed to do to avoid it.

What I wasn’t doing was trying, on any level that really mattered, to try and get to know who Jesus Christ really was. It had never really sunk down to the core level of my heart who He really was, what He really did, and how much He really loved me. I had a lot of ‘head knowledge’ of the Bible, but none of that knowledge had ever really moved from my head to my heart.

How can you love a God that you don’t know? How can you love a God that you’re still not 100% convinced is really out there? How can you love a God that, still lurking somewhere in the back of your mind, is an ‘out to get you’ God?

It was only after I decided to dispense with all of my preconceived notions of whom Jesus was and really begin to seek to know Him that I was able to begin to get the barest glimpse of Him as He really is and discover that love that I had been seeking for so many years. I suppose that is why God says in Jeremiah 9:24 that “…the one who boasts should boast in this, that he understands and knows Me —that I am the LORD, showing faithful love, justice, and righteousness on the earth…” It is only by coming to know Jesus that you can ever really say that you actually love Him.

I realize now that Jesus was beckoning to me all the while. Whether you call it Calvin’s ‘irresistible grace’ or Wesley’s ‘prevenient grace’, Jesus was guiding me all along to the point in my life where would be able to come to a knowledge of and faith in Him. And once you actually start to know and understand Jesus just the barest bit, how could you help but to love Him?

There are some neat little side effects that come with beginning to know and understand Christ’s perfect love. The first thing that happens is that you begin to want to do what you know will please him. It’s also contagious! Once I began to realize how much God loved me, and started trying my best to love Him back, that same love began to seep out to those people around me. I began to be able to start loving my neighbor as myself! After all, Christ didn’t die on the Cross for me alone; He died for every single person in the world. Therefore, who am I not to at least attempt to love all of these other people that He loves just as much as He loves me? Suddenly I began to have compassion for people whom once before had never done anything but get on my nerves.

I know of course that Christ’s love has not yet been perfected in me, not by a long shot, but I strive day by day to grow in His grace and love more and more. As I read through the scriptures and come across all of the references about loving God and loving neighbor, it becomes more and more apparent to me just how important that love actually is. I’m not altogether sure that my wife’s pastor didn’t actually nail it on the head in that sermon all of those years ago. When God asks ‘How much did you love my Son’, He knows that the answer will accurately reflect the whole of your life and faith as well. The more that a person loves Jesus, the more that person will seek to try and do those things that please Him.

Skipping Easter in Armstrongism

At this time, I am about a third of the way through N.T. Wright’s somewhat voluminous book “The Resurrection of The Son of God”, and am realizing more and more what a scandalous event the first Easter actually was. I am also beginning to see how Easter or more properly of a lack thereof, is a critical key to unlocking the riddle of why perhaps it took me so long to find a meaningful and effectual faith in Christ.

Without going into a lot of detail (those with a background in Armstrongism will immediately identify, those without may be a little puzzled), I’ll recollect my childhood memories of what I was taught about Easter growing up in the WCG (Worldwide Church of God).

Armstrong (the WCG leader) taught that Easter was a pagan holiday, and our church did not observe Easter. Instead we celebrated the Jewish Passover, with a light dusting of Jesus thrown in. Although Armstrong did acknowledge the resurrection of Christ, it was highly de-emphasized in favor of celebrating the foreshadowing of the resurrection by the Passover because Armstrong wanted to accomplish two things.

First by denying the Easter Service and all that entailed, he was able to further separate ‘The Church’ from all of the rest of what he considered ‘Paganized Christianity’. Secondly, by focusing more on Passover and less on the resurrection of Christ, Armstrong was able to re-enforce the WCG’s teaching of our pseudo-Jewish identity (Anglo-Israelism). These theological ideologies taught by Armstrong about Easter I can now see were a couple of the key instruments that made it difficult for me to disassociate myself from Armstrongism and understand what real Christianity was all about.

I’m not even going to visit Armstrong’s views about the ‘pagan’ origins of Easter. Easter is not about bunnies and eggs, nor is about some pagan goddess. Easter is about the resurrection of Jesus Christ…end of story. Any attempts to bring in other mythologies to discredit Easter is nothing but pure legalism.

One thing must be made perfectly clear if we are to understand Easter. Considering Easter as just a Christian holiday that we celebrate once a year is completely devaluating what is meant by celebrating Easter. Easter is the commemoration of the resurrection of the Son of God, as the title of my current read so aptly names it, that happened at one precise moment in history.

Easter is the entire focal point of the Christian faith. Without a firm and complete belief and focus on Christ crucified and raised on the third day, the religion of Christianity becomes hollow and without any effect. It was precisely the absolute scandal of Easter that allowed the early Christian Church to begin and which sustained it for the last two millennia. Easter is the linchpin upon which all of Christianity revolves.

As Paul puts it in 1 Corinthians 15:17-19;

“And if Christ has not been raised, your faith is worthless; you are still in your sins. Therefore those who have fallen asleep in Christ have also perished. If we have placed our hope in Christ for this life only, we should be pitied more than anyone”

Easter is the reality around which the whole cosmos spins. Without Easter central to Christian theology it is impossible to understand the full implications of what it means to worship and love God by understanding that Jesus;

existing in the form of God, did not consider equality with God
as something to be used for His own advantage.
Instead He emptied Himself by assuming the form of a slave,
taking on the likeness of men.
And when He had come as a man in His external form,
He humbled Himself by becoming obedient
to the point of death—even to death on a cross
(Philippians 2:6-8)

I am understanding more and more that a truncated understanding of Easter makes it highly difficult if not altogether impossible to fully love God in the way that is necessary for an effective Christian experience.

When Christ was questioned about what the greatest of the commandments was in (Luke 10:27) he of course replied with an abbreviated version of the Jewish Shema, which was to “”‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’”

How can you but help love the God who died for you?

The book of 1 John contains many illustrations of how that we can know that we are ‘in Christ’ and therefore saved. The main thrust of the entire book is that if we love God then we remain in Him. John tells us that we are able to have this love because He first loved us (1 John 4:19) and a great assurance of the confidence that we can have of our salvation comes a little earlier in this chapter in the passage found 1 John 4:15-17;

Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God—God remains in him and he in God.
And we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and
the one who remains in love remains in God, and God remains in him. In this, love is
perfected with us so that we may have confidence in the day of judgment; for we are as
He is in this world.”

For many years after leaving ‘The Church’, Easter was very uncomfortable to me. After I got married and started trying to attend ‘normal’ Christian churches, I somehow or another felt like I was doing something wrong by celebrating Easter and Christmas. Those deeply engrained teachings of Herbert Armstrong took a long time to shake off.

It was only after I endeavored to find out ‘The Truth” about Christ’s life, death and resurrection by reading a lot of apologetics was I able to accept the reality of Easter. And once I was able to do that, I was then able to begin to fully understand and believe that God really did so love the world that He gave His only begotten Son. I was then able to pass from death to life.

As I continue to work backwards to understand what elements in my understanding hindered me for so long in coming to what is now a meaningful and saving faith in Christ, I firmly believe that not having a full understanding and appreciation of Easter was an integral part of it. Not all, I’m sure, but this lingering vestige of growing up in the WCG was definitely a key element.

In my next post I think I’ll try and pick at another piece of the puzzle. I want to look a little more at what having a true love for Christ is and how in contrasts with mere infatuation.
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Failing Christianity, or Failed by Christianity?

Twenty years or so ago I had no idea about what the terms of Justification, Regeneration or Sanctification might mean in a theological sense. I only knew about two ideas concerning the concept of Salvation, one being what I had been taught growing up in the cult known as the Worldwide Church of God, and the other what I had witnessed among the people that I had encountered in various forms of Charismatic Fundamentalism.

I had rejected the theology of Herbert Armstrong’s Church of God. It didn’t really take a whole lot of study in the New Testament to realize that most of his theology was grossly misinterpreted scripture. Somehow or another, though, I still somehow felt that being a Christian meant being good. The legalistic teachings of Armstrong had left it imbedded in my brain that in order to make it to whatever Heaven might actually be, you must do good works and a whole lot of them.

After leaving home and the ‘Church’ behind at the age of sixteen, I had a number of encounters with various forms of Charismatic Fundamentalism. I briefly attended a fairly broad spectrum of Charismatic churches, all the way from the United Pentecostals to the Assemblies of God to a variety of non-denominational Charismatic churches.

What I kept hearing was all of these personal testimonies of how people had been gloriously ‘saved’ from their former sinful lives. All you had to do, it seemed, was to believe in Jesus, get baptized and then you’d come out of the water a “Brand New Person”, never having to sin again. In fact, from the testimonies that I remember hearing, it was near about impossible to sin any more after getting ‘Saved’, the Holy Spirit would prevent you from falling back into sin.

Everything seemed to be about having a ‘personal relationship with Jesus’. From what I could gather, all you needed was some sort of a ‘Mustard Seed’ type of belief, confess Jesus, get baptized and Jesus and the Holy Spirit would do all of the rest of the work!

It really seemed to good to be true, and some of those Christian folks actually kind of scared me a little, so I shied away until I was about 25 or so from ever really making any attempt at ‘becoming a Christian.’

Not long after getting married and having my first child, I decided that it was time to clean up my act. I had struggled with substance abuse issues and a multitude of other ‘sins’ for many years by now, and my new marriage was starting to suffer because of it. Having tried A.A. and found it lacking, I decided that Christianity must be the answer. My wife was already a confessing Christian, having been brought up Baptist, so we decided to start attending the local Baptist church down the road.

This was my first Baptist church, and with the main difference being the more solemn style of worship (and no talking in tongues!), I heard pretty much the same message that I had been hearing in the Charismatic churches. Confess Jesus as Lord and Savior, get baptized, and it was a cakewalk after that. I decided that I didn’t have anything to lose at this point, so I took the plunge.

It didn’t work.

I came out of the Baptismal feeling just like I did going into it. Somehow or another, I had the impression that some sort of ‘magic’ was going to happen when I went into that water. You know, a choir of angels singing, bright lights, and of course a new and different stream of thoughts running through my brain. I thought that my problems with lust, anger, alcohol and all of the other ‘sins’ that I struggled with prior to getting baptized were simply going to vanish when I came out of the water. Instead I was just wet.

Nothing else, just wet.

If you haven’t read my more detailed posts about my journey in finding a meaningful and life transforming faith in Jesus Christ you can find my story here, here, here and here, or you can just read my Why Am I Here link and follow these same links at the end of the post.

Let’s fast forward to the last year and a half or so.

Everything that I had been looking for in that initial baptism has now occurred. I can’t say that I’ve really had a particular moment, a Damascus Road incident so to speak, where I knew that I had found the ‘Get Into the Wheelbarrow’ type of faith that I talked about in my last post. What I have discovered is that ‘magic’ that I was looking for so very long ago. I now have complete assurance of my salvation and all of those ‘sins’ that I struggled with so mightily for so many years, at least the largest and most agrievious portion of them, have vanished away with comparatively little effort on my part.

So the big question is, all of those years ago, did I fail Christianity or did Christianity fail me?

I asked the Pastor of the Methodist Church that we’ve been attending a while back if he thought I was ‘saved’ those many years ago with my first baptism or if it was in actuality much more recently after I had related my story to him. He seemed to be of the opinion that my salvation was actually secure from the moment of my first confession of faith and that I had for all of these years been suffering from a combination of various addictions and bad theology, but I’m not so sure.

So where am I going with all of this, you might ask.

Well, to begin with I have come to believe that many fundamentalist Christians, especially those of the charismatic variety, have come to view justification, regeneration and sanctification as a package deal. I am coming to see the great error in this.

Secondly, although I am deeply interested in finding out exactly how this deep fundamental change has finally occurred in my life and why it took so long, I am much more interested in finding ways to perhaps help others avoid having to take such a long and treacherous journey in finding a faith in Christ that really works.

I’ll try and explore in my next post some of the various options open to me within the various theological streams of thought to explain what precisely happened along the way to cause my journey to a meaningful and effectual faith be so difficult.